magical thinking

The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any.
— alice walker

I would say, "the most common way people give up their magic is by thinking they don't have any." 

I've been searching for magic for quite awhile. My journals are full of my seeking magic. This Fall, I am enrolled in The Magic School. I am encountering magic everywhere I turn. 

This morning, I said to myself, "I need to do my meditation." I immediately changed the phrasing to, "I want to do my meditation." The little voice inside me said, "Why? Why do you want to do your meditation?" I replied, "for my future self." 

Right then, I challenged myself to remember that future self is not far off in the distance. She is right here in the next moment. The very next breath is the breath of the future self. Wow. 

My entire demeanor changed. I am not doing things for my far off self; I am doing things for my right now self. A little shift. Small Magic. 

I am giving myself that which I crave. The small magic. It can happen anytime I choose and that is magical as well. 

Another shift I am making: I am going to stop referring to my home as my forever home. Every time I say that, I see myself as a very old woman living there. With a very old woman comes the challenges of aging. Then I start thinking of how I will navigate my stairs in my old age and what I can do  . . . and blah blah blah. THAT is not magical thinking. 

From now on, my home is my RIGHT NOW home. It is perfect for me now. That's all I need to know. THAT is magical thinking.