must i create

Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would have to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write? Dig into yourself for a deep answer. And if this answer rings out in assent, if you meet this solemn question with a strong, simple “I must”, then build your life in accordance with this necessity; your whole life, even into its humblest and most indifferent hour, must become a sign and witness to this impulse.
— rilke, letters to a young poet

Replace the word write with the word create in Rilke's quote above and my quest in life is revealed. I ask myself, must I create and with a resounding voice, I answer, "Yes. My very life depends on it" 

The creating comes in many forms. I paint at my easel. I excavate words and create poems. I harness my thoughts run wild and post them here. Cooking is a form of creativity. Many supplies are not needed. Give me a pen and a cocktail napkin and I will create. It occurs to me that no supplies are needed to nurture the creative spirit. The mind and heart are free to create the way to exist in the world. 

My favorite form of creating is Art Journalng. From the first discovery over eight years ago until today, the showing up to pages with paint, pen, and paste has transformed my life. It is a portable art form and can be as simple or complex as you make it. I shift between having just one journal for everything and many journals for all the things. In many ways, I feel this is what I will leave behind me for my children. This is how they will know my life when I am gone. 

If you are new to art journaling or even if you simply need some new inspiration, check out the resources below. ( not an exhaustive list by any means. not even an exhaustive list of resources that I consistently use. However, it's a good place to start)