It's just after nine o'clock pm on Sunday night and I just realized that I haven't written my post for today. All day long, I thought that I had already written and posted. Ah. I am blaming it on this weather system pushing through South Carolina. We've had quite a ride this weekend. I am grateful that we returned from the coast when we did.
We spent last week at the beach. It was a simple and slow trip. I felt like time stopped. I took virtually no photos, making myself be aware and in the moment. I love taking photos as much as anyone and having the phone handy always makes it easy to capture the moment. However, I needed to put the phone away and just be in the moment rather than observing. I don't want to be a spectator in my life. I want to BE in my life.
I sat on the beach Sunday night and watched the lunar eclipse. I was able to see the moon become completely covered before the clouds swept it from my sight. The moon and I had some beautiful conversations. The ocean and I took care of some magical business. It was a ceremony of release and acceptance.
The rest of the week was spent feeding my family, taking walks on the beach, splashing in the pool. I am not a sand and surf girl. I didn't read as much as I wanted and I didn't spend as much time in my journal as I intended however I did work a few things out. I wrote each morning, just ninety-nine words accompanying a poem that I created created during my first 100 day challenge of creating excavated poetry from A Tree Grows in Brooklyn.
The one book that I began reading is Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. Oh my. Oh my. I am going to see her later this month in Asheville, NC. Yay! In the second chapter, she writes about what will happen when we say yes and I asked myself what I have said yes to lately.
I have said yes to a lot but there is more to which I have said no, maybe, wait. If you asked if my creativity has been held back with fear, I would have told you no. Now, I am taking a closer look; I am digging deeper. There is fear that I hadn't realized was there. It's time to move beyond the fear, beyond the no, beyond the waiting. I am moving on.