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I have many carts before my horse ... yes, just one horse. and many carts. All out of order. 


I don't allow myself to be in a fertile void ( thank you Kate Northrup for some understanding around the upward cycle action plan ) 


I think I have many judgments wrapped around my more inactive modes. Feel like I always have to be reaching forward, moving, and discontent. 


I am afraid of being labeled lazy. 


rain again today and the day feels less productive ... from a doing standpoint. 


From a being perspective, I am have been quite busy pushing my feet deep into the ground and pressing my ear against my soul and listening hard.


I want easy answers but nothing about any of this is easy.


I need course correction and my guiding question has to be what is serving my deep healing. 


I don't like disappointing people.